Breaking the ties

Finally, after a long and excruciating period of books mugging, I can now officially ditch all of them aside, it's over for good.

Yes!! I'm blogging once again! After a good 1 month :D and I just clear up my table, no more books in sight!

I kinda hesitated a while before writing this post, partly was due to my prior intention of completely abandoning the blog, I really mean it though. But then again, I have so many thoughts to pen down, and I figure I should just write here once in a while, for whatever reason it may be.

So yay, my first post after A levels!

Which also signifies the end of my college life, and marks the beginning of my Uni life (which is now all blurry and uncertain yet) but what I'm positive for sure is, I'm gonna be doing Economics. Accounting seems way too unattractive to me, as in the job scope. I may like it as a subject, but I don't think I'll like it as a career, walao all the experience I heard from past accountants definitely scares the shit outta me. As for economics, hmmh, I like the theories, it's interesting to learn, but mind you, it requires lots of thinking and reasoning and the exam is definitely no fun :(Despite not being a professional degree, I'd still prefer to be enrolled in this discipline. Or both if possible.

And here comes my seemingly endless holiday (unless I've decided and got accepted by the Unis I want, not to mention obtaining a scholarship by any means possible), I have so many plans! Not that you people care also :D

Last day of College

This is the whole group of my class, a decent class picture, some of which I think I won't see them again o.O Not to mean that they're gonna die or something.

As for the night, we thought of toasting our achievements by going somewhere further than usual, so we decided to head over to laundry bar. I thought we would at least be enjoying ourselves but, some circumstances just kinda ruined the happy-and-merry-or-so-i-thought atmosphere.

Seriously I have to say something about this. If you're going out with a bunch of friends, and you're bringing your another half, the least you can do is to enjoy with the rest. If by any means an argument or some big thing just happened that you seriously have to whack the living out of your, another half, please, at least have the decency to do it privately.

Not only that you unintentionally grabbed all the attentions from everybody, it's rude and demeaning as well. Then people will start to wonder, oh my gee, what just happened wtf, did they just got slapped by the pasta??? And your friends, automatically would have turned to help you, try to lighten up your mood, because you're a friend, and they can't just leave you alone. Then the atmosphere would turn awkward, although we'll still talk and laugh, but it's not like we don't know what happened just now.

So point is, if you and your, another half is there, at least try to tolerate among one self, smile, and deal with it later. Should you really have a dire need to scream amongst yourselves, don't just walk away, at least put up a smile and say to the group, hei guys, we both gotta pee or something, please excuse us. We'll understand, and if you need to talk about it later, you still can, at least things would be a lot better I believe. Being in a relationship doesn't mean you deserve all the attentions ok.

If whoever related to this may have felt offended to a certain extent, and that you need to say a gazillion bad words to curse me (although I believe it's unlikely to happen XD) please understand that, I'm your friend, and I'm just trying to help. Some things are better said, so that we know what happened. Just don't take offense la ok :D

Woah, a bit too much for my first post, time to take a break. BUT!

Whilst knowing my exam is finally over, there's still some people who are still struggling, or their exam has just begun, well, sorry to say but, you just have to SUCK IT UP :D Have a happy exam time!

No la jk, here's my very sincere wish, best of luck! Till then.

It's Official

This blog is strictly on Hiatus, until, well...

until the time I like lor. But KONFIRM no update for now la. Nothing to blog at all, might even consider to totally abandon it already.

After all there's facebook n everything, I wonder what's the purpose of a blog anymore.

Till then!

But wait!

You're still not allowed to ditch me until I officially shut it down okay :D ehehehe.

Choices

Our life revolves choices. Choices to be made, choices to be decided, and choices to ponder for.

We choose what we want to eat later. This is a choice.

We choose our favorite color. This is a choice too.

But if we choose to ruin someone's life deliberately, that my friend, it's not a choice.

It just means you're a pathetic bitch who enjoys the satisfaction of watching them fall at the expense of their humiliation. Just like killing somebody, it's not a choice as well, it just means you're digging your own grave.

What a comical life we have.

My class, AN9A

The past one and a half year has been one of the best time I had, the least to say.

Somewhere in May 2008, I was enrolled into TARC, where I got the chance of meeting up with a bunch of people, where we self claimed as the Beast and Bitches (dam lame right wtf lol)

I still remember our very first outing, we went for a movie! Can't remember what we watched though, but that was a big bunch of us.



At that point of time, most of them are as innocent as they are! But time proved me wrong. Very wrong indeed XD

From the days where we are red and prosperous,



Till the day we're all black yet joyful,



This my friend, is my class. My one a half year there is definitely not just a waste of time.



There were times when we were so spontaneous, one suggestion, and poof, up we are at Genting, acting like bunch of asses.



We experienced High and Low together, both the good and bad times.



What's more visiting a friend house during Chinese New year..



We spent most of our times eating together, hanging out, doing stupid things, gossiping, we're most than just friends. We are one family.



Of course, some of our night life includes partying, so they say, study hard, but party harder!



Not to mention the chilling out session with beers and liquors, and some unforgettable drunk scenes XD *the most classic one? must ask chua hunt lol*



And then there were also times when we spent our night squeezing in a friends room (in 1 single bed wtf)! Just because we couldn't go back to our places.



Nevertheless, the camwhoring spirit in us that never fail in us. What's more with they cute gay shots? XD



And also the candid which revealed their true faces!! HAHA



Time and tide waits for no man, good times fly faster than we could even realize.



But one thing for sure, despite not being able to attend the same classes with you guys anymore,



Our friendship never dies, that's for sure.



What I truly want to say is,

It's really been a great pleasure to be in the same class with you guys. This post can never justify the fun times we spent together.

TO LONG LASTING FRIENDSHIPS!

Loves,

Ex-AN9ians.

p/s::: ehhhh, sushi bonanza is here again :D Mon-thurs, pick a date yeah bitches n beasts XD

The Black Eyed Peas

Judging at my almost dead blog, not like I care anymore, but but, here's something for whoever readers (if any left) to read, if you may.

Yesterday, I had the opportunity to work at a concert - ARTHURS DAY, which I think most of you are quite familiar with. The point is of course, to celebrate the founder, Guinness Arthur, for establishing the liquor company that have left a legacy in the history of beers manufacturing, a remarkable 250 years down the journey of life.

In which, KL is the only continent in Asia selected to host this massive event. Proud, not? Thanks to Mei Zhen, few of us had the chance to work there as "ticket collectors", reaching there as early as 3pm before the event begins. We waited until around 5-6pm before we were assigned to our duties, and I seriously think it's a pure waste of time. Never mind that, what's after are those that only matters.

I'm very impressed with their stage in fact, it looked dam cool the moment I saw it. Too bad no big artists were rehearsing, how nice if we get to see Black Eyed Peas first before any of the crowd does. lol.

That night itself, me and my friends were assigned to be a one day bouncer. I say, it totally sucked. Due to the fact that this concert serves alcohol (you gotta buy it if you're not a vip) at RM10 per pint, so many people, I mean A HELL LOT of people are literally squeezing their way into the drinking zone just to get themselves a drink. It's almost as if there's treasure inside or something wei. And when you have to handle such crowds, they tend to be impatient, and when they becomes impatient, they get furious eventually, and when they get furious, we - the poor staffs, will subsequently get all their screwing. The pay we were offered definitely do not justify the amount of workload we had, it's just quite unfair to be working our ass off for such a meager amount of pay, whats more when we couldn't really enjoy the concert at all.

Just when I thought the night couldn't go any more worse, I told myself, fuck this man, I'm gonna go party when black eyed peas are out. And so me and hunt ditched our job, and joined the crowd when BEP is coming out. Due to the immense crowd and barely visible sight from our place, Hunt suggested that we head to another spot for a clearer and better sight.

From a dull night, it became one of the most spectacular night that I ever had. BEP definitely did an awesome job getting the crowd all hype up, words definitely cannot describe how good they are. Guess what, they even had fireworks after that, super thumbs up man. What else could be better other than holding a pint of beer, listening to the live version of I Gotta Feeling, and greeted by a spectacular fireworks display right after that? Everything just became seemingly unimportant after that XD

But still, the highlights of the night? It's not the 2 pint of beers I stole took, with gratitude, from the gold zone (it's free anyway), it's the chance that I had where I was so close with Fergie, like only few CMs away from her, because me and hunt abused our worker pass and trespassed into some restricted area right beside the stage, and then she walked towards us!

No, I didn't zoom my camera at all. I swear I could touch her already. FERGIEEEE <3

A timid rat

There's a rat,
Timid, black and ugly.
Lives in a hole,
Unsighted by the world,
Unseen by people.

Nothing he has,
that made him proud.
A rat,
an apathetic one,
who thought he knew the world.

One lucky day,
He saw a cheese.
It's not just a normal cheese,
By just the sight of it,
he knew it's the most wonderful of all.

Thinking and pondering,
Hesitating and contemplating.
To go for it,
Yet afraid of the danger surrounds,
he left wondering, should he?

Moments flew by,
Cheese is still left untouched.
A thought emerged,
the cheese will be his eventually,
he will come by some other time.

Days passed by,
Cheese is still secured.
The little rat.
Timid as always still,
taking the cheese for granted.

An abrupt movement,
He was alerted.
Another rat has came,
Out of the blues,
Which caught him off guard.

The lovely cheese,
Was pouched away.
Disappeared and vanished,
from the sight he was so accustomed to,
It's now gone forever.

The rat,
Still as timid as he is.
Nothing was done and taken,
Helpless in one hand,
Or just simply pathetic in mind.

An inexplicable sorrow,
emerged from his timid heart.
The cheese he took granted for,
Is not merely just a cheese,
It's his beautiful dream.

And now it's gone, and gone for good.

Patriostism - One Malaysia

I stumbled across this advertisement while watching TV today, it talks about patriotism in Malaysia.

It was a rainy day, where a middle aged Malay motorist stopped by at a bus stand waiting for the rain to subside. At the bus stop alone, a few groups of people (all malays if my memory serves me well) also sat there either waiting for buses, or to gain temporary shelter.

Then some lightning struck on a pole , and down fall the Malaysian flag. Nobody seemed to bother about it's predicament, except that uncle of course, who seemed to have an urge to grab it back. Soon enough, a car seemed to be approaching. The uncle, feeling paranoid and fearing that the car will run over the flag, very quickly, he ran towards the flag and picked it up immediately without hesitation, ignoring the heavy downpour of course.

The message is quite vivid. It says, Our country flag is our pride, never let our pride down.

Here comes the point of the day, will you do the same?

Don't you think the advertisement itself is already instilling racism? Put it in this way, why must everyone in the bus stand be Malays? Are Malays the only people who are patriotic enough to protect their pride, the Malaysian flag? I can't help but to relate pride with social rights, of course they have the benefit of being the aborigines, deserving much more advantage in many ways. So, does that justify the fact that they are the only people who will be protecting our pride?

Ask yourself this, do you think, by any chance will they replace that Malay uncle with a Chinese, to pick up the flag? Haha, guess the answer is so obvious that most of us would have already knew without guessing. Chinese, and indians alike, we - are much lower than that of the Malays, that we - are incapable of protecting our national pride, our country flag. Talking about ranking, if ever you have to compare which race is better in this country, I guess the native Malays tops the first.

So, what is the point of instilling patriotism? When some of these patriotic messages are still indirectly elevating the rights of the Bumiputras? How do one be patriotic, when we are still being treated unequally?

Let's talk about the new motto, or patriotic code whatever it's called - ONE MALAYSIA.

The point of being one, is being unified alike, being the same, hence the word - ONE, because everything will reconciled into being a united representation, denoted by the figure 1. Such powerful number isn't it? Like who doesn't like to be number 1 in everything.

However so, picture this, few pencils are being tied together, some being short and some being long, of course when you tie them together it will be in ONE bundle. But the thing is, the height is unequal, when you put your palm on the sharp led surfaces, the longer pencils will actually poke you, it hurts does it. See, when you have unequal objects together, uniting them might give you a stronger bond in the outside, but when you tries to approach them in the inside, it does actually hurt.

Same like races, if we are treated unequally, of course the government can always unite us as it seems on the outside, but deep within, do you think the aim can be achieved, when backstabbing among races, conflicts and arguments, corruptions are happening like never before? One day, the bond will still break. Why does all these seems to happen? Because some people aren't happy with their current positions, they feel mistreated, they feel unfair. If uniting people in different races is already such a tedious task, wouldn't by having unequal rights among one races with the other adds up the impossibility in this? It's funny how our government can seem so confident by just saying one malaysia, but little did they know that the younger generation aren't that blind anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I still loves my country, I still love the fact that I'm born here, but I am just not so patriotic, because I can't feel it deep within, or should I say, there isn't any reasons that allows me to feel so.

1 Malaysia. 1 Nation.