Gone Case

The reason of me not blogging lately is simple, I'm lazy. It's not about the exam, it's not about the stress, it's just about laziness, because I'm totally used to the monotonous life I'm having right now, and there is nothing worth to pen down an entry. It's all about waking up, studying, attend to exams if I have to, come back, computer, watch drama after studying, and resuming studies after that.

Seriously how long more can this go?

I need a good long break after this exam. AS had been a dreadful experience, what top it worst is the fact that I think I screwed up my Accounting paper. I was having cold sweats literally, my hands were trembling, adrenaline were pumping so quickly I swear if you stab me with a knife now, I would have no reaction until I finished my paper. All that happened when I look at my espirit watch on my wrist, which indicated that there's only 20 more minutes left for a couple of unattended questions. Apart from being nervous, I keep confronting myself to stay calm and try my best, but to no avail.

I didn't manage to finish the questions, in an exam like this. All the practices and exercises, all the time I spent, was it not for me to be prepared fully for this paper? I swear I did work very hard, maybe it just wasn't enough.

Exam is really a piece of crap. It's unfair, it's bias, and it's like a game of poker. You risk yourself betting on a few chapters, and if your luck is on your side, you win hands down. But if you wanna play safe, you try to be all rounded and be prepared for everything, and then lady luck says, today is so not your day, I'm still gonna screw for all your hardworks. So in other words, you phailed.

Read this, I'm not trying to seek attention, nor I need your consolation as well. Please don't say: you tried your best, it's over. I know it is, I know very well, so save that, I thank you for being kind but all I need is to vent my frustration, and to reflect about my falling. Failing is the key to strive, no?

But on a brighter note, there's something I liked to do after the exam.

Vacation - redang? I miss that place :( but it seems not really promising judging at the current response

Clubbing - ?? Lol, stress relieving remedy

Movies - TRANSFORMER 2 OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG MEGAN FOXX OMG OMG.

Have a good exam time.