The Past

While I was in the midst of reading my economics lecture notes, I saw a skype IM from an old friend who gave me the perfect reason for me to procrastinate, so I have decided to take a short break (more like me trying to slack whenever I possibly could).

Anyway, the conversation made me stir up some memories in the past. My style of writing in particular. I remember when I first started this blog, I became an avid blogger who blogs about almost every shits of my life, in the most childish possible way ever. When reading some of my old posts, I was like WTF LUL, as much as it was hilarious, it also shows how young and stupid I was, which caught me wondering, how did I even came out such crap? But the truth is, I did, so like the old and wise always says, let the past be the past.

The thing is, if I have never jot down the bits and pieces of my past for me to reflect on, will I remember who I used to be? I mean of course your brain is awesome but most of the times, you won't be able to remember those tiny bits your life that has somehow, or somewhat made an impact in your life. Like, a friend may have slapped you with a fish and then you just remember that he still owes you a slap! Or, your first job was some shitty insurance telemarketing job and made you say no to becoming an insurance agent for life.

The past is what defines us, you learn the history of your character to be make a better one in the future. Or worse to some people, but either way, it defines you!

Maybe I was silly once, but I have learn to grow smart now.

Maybe I have made a wrong decision earlier, but I have come to make a new one, which could possibly be a wrong one, but you will never know until the moment you knew it's wrong, after all what's wrong without right?

Maybe when I look at my past now, I may have regretted on the many things that I have wrote or done earlier, but 20 years from now, I may be smiling to myself and say; Hei, I did that when I was young! Lol.

Or it could be;

Maybe I should have just said do this, and why didn't I do it in the first place?

The list goes on to infinity.

It's interesting how you should read at all the stuffs you once wrote eons ago, and react upon it after that. For all you may know, it might be a surprise for you!

And I should be back to my econ notes now, yup, yes I should. Okay.